The months waned on and the weight flew off. I was questioned by countless people accusing me of having some kind of eating disorder. It was very hurtful and my self-esteem really suffered during that period. It wasn’t nice to be scrutinized and accused over something that I had no control over. People were very critical and harsh. I’ve been on the other end of the spectrum that felt just as bad. Eleven years ago, I started a weight loss journey and dropped around 75lbs. Being scrutinized as a thin person was just as bad as being judged and made fun of for being fat. People were just not nice and I was embarrassed about my plummeting weight. Being called out so much for this drove me to eat like a mad woman in hopes of putting on a few extra pounds. Those bad eating habits spiraled so far out of control, that when I did get back on track, I felt so restricted.
To date, I have felt a few pounds starting to creep back up. I don’t want to gain weight from cheeseburgers and French fries though. Instead, I’d rather turn extra weight into muscle. I’d like to get back to a point where I can work out, eat healthy, and feel good about myself. This is why I chose the 21 day fix. I know this program will kick start and reset my mind into getting back to my healthier way of eating and working out consistently. I know this will put me back on track to where I’d like to be. On top of that, I’m giving myself the gift of time and focus every evening for 30 minutes on MYSELF. I’m putting the housework and baby aside, so that I can hunker down and give myself 30 minutes of much needed attention. Every mom deserves a break and I’m no exception.
Obviously, my son is the most important person in the world to me. I am a single mother, therefore I am the primary caregiver of my son. I need to make sure that I’m always healthy and in tip top shape. I’m the one doing everything for him, so I cannot get to a point where I’m not able to care for him. Being able to run, play, jump, and just be active and involved in his life is so important to me. It’s more important than stuffing my face full of calories and being inactive. I want to be upfront in the center of all the action. Seeing his smile and hearing his giggle is enough to motivate me. I couldn’t imagine letting him down because I’ve let myself go. He’s enough of a reason for me to begin this journey and to instill some lifelong nutritional education in him. We only have each other, which is a very scary thought. I will do anything I can to protect each of us, which includes developing a healthier lifestyle. Yes, there will be days where we indulge, but if the good outweigh the bad, then we really have no cause for concern. Everything is okay in moderation. I’ve heard that throughout my entire life, but never really believed it until now.
Why would I want to set my son up to feel bad about himself, or to ever have to spend his life being upset about his weight? Wouldn’t it be easier to teach him the right way and to set him down the right path? If I am taking care of myself and focusing on my health, then I’m ultimately setting a great example for my son to carry throughout his life. If I sit and think about all of the times I felt worthless, overweight, and completely disgusting it makes me sad. It makes me want to avoid giving my son a life that promotes those kinds of feelings. If you ever felt that way, or you still feel that way, why would you want your child to endure that same kind of pain? I know I’d like to avoid that at all costs.
The 21 day fix is so much more to me than weight loss and losing inches. It’s about my life, my son, and being the healthiest versions of US that we can be. It’s ensuring we put forth an investment in our health, so that we can spend a LONG life playing, running, jumping, smiling, and laughing together. I can’t think of anything better.
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