A fresh start

Today marks a fresh start for me. Yes, I’ve been continuing to work out and eat healthy, but my mental state has been a bit clogged over the last two weeks. A lot of things have transpired in my personal life that have pulled my focus away. It took a firm talking to, but I feel like I’m ready to move past those things, re-focus, and buckle down again. The number one thing I’ve learned throughout my health and fitness journey is that I’m stronger than I thought I was. Mentally, my mind was so clear, and free. It was one of the best feelings I’ve ever had. Yes, feeling energized and good about myself physically is a perk, but the mental clarity is something I was completely ignorant to.  I had no idea what it felt like to have a peace of mind and to just be happy and positive. It saddens me that I’ve allowed things to drag me down a bit the last couple of weeks. I’m still human even though I like to pretend otherwise. I’m glad that I deal with things in a healthy way now compared to before. It’s good to know that I can accept, deal, then move on without causing a bigger train wreck in my life. I guess that’s what I’ve learned over the last two months. You don’t have to dwell because life really is so much more than the bad things that happen.

What pushes me and keeps me going are the amazing people behind me. I’ve never felt so blessed to be a part of a team before this. Having a pack behind me to always pick me up when I need it has been incredibly humbling. I can’t even begin to express the gratitude that I have for these people. Not even people. They are now my friends.  It’s been amazing to form new relationships, and to actually have something in common. Health and fitness has bonded all of us so much. I truly feel that we are a part of a special crew. The best part is our crew continues to grow. The support is always overflowing. There will never be a shortage of motivation either.

I haven’t really set a goal as to what I’d like to achieve in my 4th round of the 21 day fix. I’d just like to get stronger, build more muscle, and be able to run faster. This morning, I defied odds by completing a 4 mile run in 24 minutes. That’s incredible. 6 minutes a mile is something I never thought I’d see. I hardly believed it when I was finished. I zoned out for a while though, so I wasn’t even thinking about running. It felt good to pound the pavement, and just enjoy the quiet. I’ve honestly never enjoyed something so much in my life. I’m glad I decided to step outside of my comfort zone and to focus on running. It’s been a Godsend. I haven’t enjoyed something this much in a really long time. Me? A runner? I can’t even digest that. 

Outside of just becoming physically stronger, I’d like to work on the mental strength as well. Being able to really push aside any negative things that I incur because I know it just isn’t worth my time.  I know that it’s nearly impossible to shun all sad, angry, unhappy feelings, but if I could block it from consuming me for days on end, that would be appreciated. I do feel a lot better today though and I’m ready to just hop back on the horse. The one thing I’ve loved so much about becoming a Beachbody coach is being able to cheerlead non-stop. To always be a bright spot in someone’s day when they aren’t feeling so great. I don’t ever want to lose that sparkle over petty, stupid things.